In the last two years, my life has had a lot of change. In February 2010, I started a new a job as a Nurse manager in a level one trauma center. In April 2010, I met the love of my life. A month later, I had a motorcycle accident that had me literally learning how to walk again. I did not brake any bones but I tore tendons that are just as important in ambulating than bones. During the first three months of recovery, my then boyfriend proved his unconditional love for me by nursing me back to heath. We were engaged by August. He moved in with me in November. We were married in December and still planning a wedding ceremony in September.
During all this time, I had become a step mother to two beautiful teenagers that had to blend in with my household of two young adult college students. The teenagers when they visited every other weekend, had to learn my house rules.
At work, my old boss was re-located to another shift in another role. My new boss was a delegator who provided little to no support system.
Then through all of that stress, Mrs. Menopause decided to add some stress too! Because I did could not exercise because of my knees, I gained 20 pounds in less than a year. By the time my first wedding anniversary came, I could not fit anything from my honeymoon. As a result of the weight, I developed bone spurs in both heels and had to get steroid injections for the pain in the past year. On top of that, I commute an hour and a half to and from work each day. A total of three to four hours each day!
Under all the stress, my stomach began to hurt,I felt I had a lump in my neck. Sometimes it felt that something was pressing on my throat. My voice started changing. I went to my physician and he diagnosed me with something bogus. I talked to a gastroenterologist that I work with. She said I had silent acid reflux. I had no burning, but I got home late and I would eat and go to sleep without allowing my food to digest. The acid would come up and spill unto my voice box causing my voice to become hoarse. I went to a GI doc and I had a medical procedure to look in my stomach. I had gastritis, inflammation of the stomach and a hiatal hernia. A hiatal hernia occurs when part of the stomach pushes through your diaphragm, leading to heartburn.
This can be cause by excess weight that causes pressure around your abdomen. It is very uncomfortable. If I over eat or eat the wrong foods, I`am in pain.No more chocolate, coffee, pepermint tea, onions, tomatoes, fried foods, spicy foods, citrus fruits or cinnamon on my oatmeal.
I recieved a call from a hospital that I applied for a job about two years ago. The recruiter wanted to set up an interview. I had a interview with my old nurse manager. She was now a director at the new hospital. She had ask the recruiter to get in touch with me. I always though she was an angel. She and God was my saving grace.
God knew I was at my wits end! But I continues to be committed to my job even when I was crashing and burning. God knew I had enough! So he sent an angel to deliver me
Now I will be a 20 minute drive to and from work. I`ll have time to eat properly and exercise. I can spend more time with my husband and hobbies. Most of all, I will have a piece of mind!
I will miss my staff dearly, but I`am no spring chicken. I have a few good years left and I intend to live them to the fullest! i`AM TO BLESSED TO BE STRESSED!
Let go and Let GOD!
My going away cake.
